a fresh start

So i pretty much had a complete emotional breakdown yesterday.  Went to my gym to sit in the hot tub and try to loosen up my back but…no employees were there so the hot tub was closed.  Liability shit.  So.  i ended up at the local airport viewing park.  Did get to see a plan take off and land.  So that was neat.  Spent almost an hour there.  Had time to think and calmn down.

Talked to Master about a lot of it last night.  W/we were able to talk about the big stuff so that’s good.  (Randomness: i really need to clean my fish tank…) Master is implimenting a daily schedule for me.  After work i go straight to the gym, then i come home, have supper and i must write a blog, work on my writing (stories, perhaps i’ll post an exerpt) and do my slave prayer before bed.  i am so happy for this… i love the feel of Master’s hand in my life.  With is being LDR right now that adds so many extra difficulties and frustrations.  At least i know that in a few months i will be a TON closer to Him.  Within driving distance.  Only 6 hours away.  After being 1300 miles apart, 6 hours is nothin’.

my “diet” is going well.  Although i broke a rule today and had a can of soda… i’m sorry Master.

i’m adding a couple of things to it though, provided Master agrees.  At night i do nothing, and lunch has always been my big meal of the day.  So, once i get home from the gym my supper will consist of a protein shake and/or fruits and veggies.  No carbs for me at night.  Since that’s my computer time i don’t need that extra shit in my body.

i had a lot more to say, but i’m really tired, so i think i may break down here and take a nap for a bit… *yawns* may write more later, and perhaps will post the exerpt.